A Letter to Baby

We are on the way to the hospital this morning to meet our sweet little boy. My mind is all over the place as I try to take mental snap shots of each moment we experience. I've scheduled a few posts for the next few weeks but wanted to share my last letter to baby boy today, on his birthday. I wanted to remember all the thoughts and feelings we experienced the last month before his arrival so I wrote him letters each week.

July 13, 2015

Dear Baby Boy,

We will see your sweet face tomorrow. I will become a mommy and Tanner will become a daddy. My whole being will change and my heart is going to feel things I didn’t know were possible. I’m swimming in so many feelings; excited, nervous, happy, scared. I’m trying to soak up the last day of just being Ashton but I know God is already preparing my heart for tomorrow. Today’s Ashton is going to be a much better version by tomorrow night.

Every time I get nervous about the actual delivery I think about the moment they will lay you on my chest and we will see you for the first time. I think about your daddy right by my side, seeing his face change as he takes you in. I think about how sweet your skin will feel and how much that amazing newborn smell will fill my heart. I think about how much my love for your daddy will grow as he coaches me through your arrival and holds my heart as we make our family of two and family of three. I think about introducing you to your grandparents, aunts, uncles, great grandparents and cousins and seeing the joy and pride in their eyes. I think about feeding you for the first time and all the little noises your going to make as you sleep.

Each one of these thoughts brings a tear and rush of emotions. We will close this chapter of our lives tonight and start the best chapter of our story tomorrow, with you.

We love you sweet baby boy. Thank you for making us parents.

Love, your mama